Give Thanks With A Greatfull Heart

Hi all well its day 3 and im still here but i would not hold your breath over the weekend lol i may actually devolpe a life and do something interesting . Well tonight im of to Bath not a bath it aint my birthday yet but Bath the place yes it that time of year again the works Christmas do. But this year is alot diffrent for me cause if you have been reading my blogs and you should have been. You will know this is day 7 of married life for me, so this year im going to be going with my lovely Bride and im so looking forward to it i cant wait for my work mates to she her and for me to show her of like the sparkeling gem that she is and trust me she is. Those who know me know that im the king of the one liner and no person or subject is sacred if i can see a blatant one liner it's up and out of my mouth before my lips have moved and unfourtunatly my bride is very often the victim of these one liners not that she objects as she is fully aware that there is no malace in what i say and quiet often she laughs herself. But recently God has been telling me through numerious ppl and several words from god through different ppl that im in a way disrespecting her and tarnishing what a wonderfull creation he has made and i hold my hands up finally i realise there are some things that are too precious to be mocked what ever the motive and sometimes that laugh comes at to high a price. Took A while but it is finally sinking in lol and im going to do my best to treat her the way that she deserves and to value her as god does and i am finally realising what gift i have been given and im going to do my best to cherishe her and love her as she is truly a blessing second only to my salvation.

So, while we are on the subject of the weekend and being greatful it all ties up nicely with what i will be doing on sunday lol(gosh you would think i plan this lol). On Sunday we have a praise and worship with the theams of being thankfull and we have been asked to take something that symbolises our thanks. I know what im taking but it was a hard decision as i have so much to thank god for where do i start infact anyone reading this will have an abundance of things to give thanks for even if they have no relationship with christ, cause as a christian i believe the bible when it says every good thing comes from god the father, that his blessings overtake us and this is not just reserved for us christians this is for every man woman and child for it say's every breath we take is because god has ordianed it And let face it we all breath it not just a privlidge for thoes that believe is it. Infact i believe the only difference is that as christians we know where to take our thanks and those who dont know jesus dont. So that is why get very angry with people when they say what have I got to be thankful for cause it means that they are missing the point they have tunnel vision they cant grasp the bigger picture for it also says in gods word that everything works for the good of those that love him so even the bad things we should be thankful for and i know thats hard but you either believe gods word or you dont. and believe me when i say it is us that makes it hard it our unbelife and our doubts. Because jesus said come to me all you that are weary and heavy burdend for i will give you rest and my yolk is easy and his burden light. so ppl if you reading this just please look at the good things in you life may it be family may it be the roof over your head may it just be the breath that your taking now cause while you still have breath you have hope, cause while your still breathing your alive, and while your alive it means god has not given up on you yet.

Day 2 (and im still here)

Right im back so where do i start you had a bit of a pre-face yesterday so maybe i should start on the meat of it all today that however may prove to be a little more difficult than it seems. Because feelings and emotions used to play a big part in my life and everyday decisions, but then i learnt to keep a lid on them and react with a logical mindset. Whch is not always easy and if you play on my emotions to any degree you will see parts of my old character show through. And i hate it when that happens cause when i wear my heart on my sleeve, it is then i usually make the stupidest decisions and do things i end up majorly reggretting. I can put 95% of my worset decisions and actions down to my emotions. Which actually is quiet a big statment to make if you anylyse it long enough. so getting the meat of this blog leaves me with a quandery do i set out through a logical mind and lay it out as i would like to read it or do i open the flood gates and let it all flow out as i believe is the real purpose of these things, but then ppl reading this might wonder which is the real me the Chris in here or the chris i portray which is still the real me but with reigns on. an ex of mine once said of me i was like two different ppl. 95% of the time i was this nice guy, but then this small propotion of the time i was this monster and i actually accept that. But since then i have really kicked myself up the backside and took a real hard look at my life my life and and realised instead of feeling sorry for myself and expecting others to fix my life for me. The only person who was going to change my life was me and that was last year and now im married to the love of my life (a word i once recived in church Said this is the woman i always wanted) and i agree im starting to make a relationship with my son which as we both are so alike can be challenging but i know with gods help and S interferring ill get there lol. and more importantly, and i say more importantly for the reason that. The only way i can achevie all this and make it all sucseed is that i have god back in my heart and that is so settling. when my emotions now rise up God's word calms them when i panic God's word settles me when i worry gods word gives me hope when im scared gods word gives me courage i think your starting to get the idea. I can't say enough how much god has done in my life i cant tell how much i owe him. gods word say's and dont ask me to quote the scripture cause i cant but if any of you know it feel free to leave it in the comment's and i think this is a good way to close today's blog. Gods word says"he who lose's his life for me shall truly save it" and my life is a living testomony to that.

Married Life

Hi there and welcome to my new blog. you will have to bare with me as i start of as i aint got a clue. And also as a word of warning i tend to type as i think so my grammer and spelling may not be up to everyone eles standered so if that is going to be an issue then please move on i dont know how ofteten i will be on here but right now it seems like a good way of organising my thoughts and generally passing time and it may help me get some prospective. Please feel free to comment as i would welcome other idea's and though's i may not agree but welcome them never the less. Right down to the business in hand my blog.

Well its day 5 of married life and what a ride it has been to get to this point. but now it has happened it feels a bit strange. i know i have been married twice before and once to my current wife so if anyone should know what to excpect it should be me right? WRONG this is nothing like i expected you try being away from your family for 8 years not knowing your son and your wife growing in maturity, wisdom and ideas and not being apart of it. it takes some adjusting i can tell you! and to top it all off im rediscovering my relationship with god and i know some might think oh no here is another jesus freak and all i can say to that is damm right!! God is my source, my strengh my map for life and everything i have good is from him. if you have sensible issues about this i am always open for debate but if your not that interested and just want abuse then please move on. Having said that i have been away from god for the past 8 years and tried doing life without him so im not some judgmental religous fool and please feel free to kick me if i ever start sounding like one cause i know i do have tendanies of this nature due to alot of my past teaching on this subject so again please bare with me. I hope from reding this blog myself i will help process my thoughs and gain some understanding to the issues in my life and of coures other ppl's comments may help direct my thught patern in a way that i may not have considered i try now not to be as closed inded as i once was. Which i can tell you is not always easy for me cause i always had to be right and life has taught me im not so time to re-evaluate i think lol.
One of the biggest thing i have learnt is to value mself and not search for my self worth in other people. I have learnt that i am who i am and not to be ashamed of it and that god loves me as much as he loved some of the greatest men and women in the bible and that is not just reserved for me that is for each and everyone of us and to be honest if the creator of the universe has approved me, Mr Jones next door oppinion of me is just Mr Jones's opinion and it has no affect on my own feeling of self worth. So unfourtunatly for people around me im going to be me and i hope the real me will show through on this Blog and as you read you will get a insight into me and how i tick as well as my life and it circumstances so bukle up and come along for the ride and lets just see where it takes us???