The power of God

It's monday afternoon and iv retreated to the sanctuary of my bedroom a my home has been over run by the Cwmtawe crew. So in the intrest of my sanity i though i would go and lock myself away and work on my blog. And as i turned my pc on i loaded up my messenger and an oldish friend was on so got speaking to her and it moved me. And thoes who know me well know i dont get moved easilly but i was moved with compassion. She is a 26 year old woman who is a single mum and is alone for christmas. You may say there are alot of women and men like that and yes there are and maybe thats why i feel so sad? I have been there myself and i know that pain of tring to look into your own future and it seeming bleak. I got to be honest God has been good to me. This time last year i'd split from someone i was in love with i was on my own, I felt unlovable unwanted and a bit of a mess to be honest. but then God came back into my life restored to me everything i had lost and now this year. Im am married i have my son back in my life and we are developing our own relationship and this chritmas should be a good one. And 2008 as a better prognosis than 2007 ever did.But back to my friend it at times like these i wish i could open the eyes of the blind (metophorically) and show them God. You Can see the remedy for there woe's you see how God could transform there lifs beyond any man imagination but they just cant see it themselves, you know havng a relationship with Jesus Christ does for you life what alka sletzer does for an upset belly. But the thing with god is he will never operate against your will. He will always respect your choices even if he knows they are wrong he will always love you just the same for God is love and it also says "nothing shall seperate us from the love of god" not even our own choices. But god is always there so if we ever realise we have made the wrong choice we can call out to him and will be there to help, Cause "he is an ever present help in times of need". But that dont mean we can just call on him willy nilly but it take's a decision on our part to accept we cant do this journey on our own. and we need to submit to an higher power you need to ask God into you life and then he will take the reignes he guide your path. And the amazing thing is that not only does he become our source of refference here on earth but we also gain everlasting life. He dont just offer hope for now he offer's hope for all seternity if you are reading this and you want to know what i feel then ask god into your life tell him you are sorry, you tried it your way and its not working tell him you need him and i promise you he wont let you down i also promise you you wont regret it.

Ok 2nd day at home

Well it sat and im feeling fine cant belive actually i had surgery 4 days ago. i woke up this morning and felt like a new man as long as m wife dont ill be fine. butback to the point i feel fab i got dressed showeed and i thought im not laying on the couch all day so i sat on it instead lol. well if you had any doubts about my health the bad jokes should tell you that im back on par. my friend D came round today which heped break the day up had a good chat about god which i have felt has been missing this week i havent had much feeding myself. and you can probably tell yourself as i cant normally stop telling of gods goodness in my life but my blogs have just be normal rambalings this week which i suppose is good in way it means unless i have got something to say i wont which gives me a good feeling anyway.
Chrisx

Ok now its time to recover

Ok i came home yesterday and had an unsettled night. but the hardest thing is all the time i got on my hands i aint been home 24 hours yet and i think im going looney already im not used to having time on my hands and dayime tv is awful. and just realisng i got about 2months of this is driving me nuts lol well sometimes we have to adapt to new circumstances so here is my new challenge. but helps me understand why housewifes go out as much as tey can if i could id be out too lol.

on my way

Well its 11:30 and im here waiting for my beautiful wife to come and collect me as im on my way home yay. i have never liked hospitals and usually sign myself out but blessed is me as i have been in and out in no time. so now just got to go home and recover but that will be hard as i dont know how to be still and rest. So maybe its time i learned to be still well we will see i cant see it myself.
Chrisxxx

Still Here

Hi all im still here the op was a major sucsess all whent swimmingly. i have always been a quick recoverer but god has surpassedhimself this time. i whent down for the op abot 8.30pm back on the ward about 10ish was up and drinking tes at 4am and was up usuing the loo at 1am the nurses could not believe it i have had no pain relife when i could have had morphine just didnt need it gods grace has been more than sufficant and i thank him for that and give him the glory and due to y miraculous recovery they are going to let me go from hospital a day early so only one more night here fabulous aint it god is good all the time. all the time god is good.
im just gutted i could not get out today and go to cell group but hay i suppose we cant have everything lol.

D Day

Right first of all sorry i didnt get anything down yesterday i ws just rushed of my feet with work and then i was in cardiff with my friendto see madness they were awsome wich eems to be the in word at the momment, well it was on suday and our thanks giving service. wich when i think aboutit is a good word when talking about God. Because when i think of God i and i mean when i really consider God i am in awe in every aspect of him, His love His mercy and hs power just to name but a few i think sometimes we have such a history of God that we tend to regard him just as God without actually taking in what that means. so when you make a statment like that you have to pause a minute and consider what god actually means to you i could sit here a write what god means to me. but what use is that to you cause god wants desire's a personal relationship with each and everyone of us it the whole purpous of our creation. again thinking on this just brings the word awesome to mind when we consier that the creator of the universe desiers a personal relationship with us is beyond understanding of our minds but going back to a previous blog it shows how precious we are in god's eyes.and the amzing thing is that with that relationship comes an higher understanding a purpose tat many ppl seek today the reason for being why are we here? so when you answer that question you know what you life is for and when you know what your life is for it easy to know what direction to walk in and if you know what direction to wal in you elimate doubt and if you eliminate doubt you have a confidence and if you have conifdence ppl,enemy or any one cant tell you your wrong and then is when you achevie the goal for your life which as it says in the bible is to be more than overcomer's. Take today for example im going into hospital for a serious operation nd naturally as it draws near nervous are playing a part in my mind but to thoes questions that get thrown up by doubt and unbelieve i have gods word to answer them with n gives me the confidence to go forward and thats te sorce of peace a personal peace that we all desire so i hop todays blog has helped just even one person then its all worth it well as i said im of to hospital now so dont know when i will be back on here but will speak to you all soon ttfn.

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Give Thanks With A Greatfull Heart

Hi all well its day 3 and im still here but i would not hold your breath over the weekend lol i may actually devolpe a life and do something interesting . Well tonight im of to Bath not a bath it aint my birthday yet but Bath the place yes it that time of year again the works Christmas do. But this year is alot diffrent for me cause if you have been reading my blogs and you should have been. You will know this is day 7 of married life for me, so this year im going to be going with my lovely Bride and im so looking forward to it i cant wait for my work mates to she her and for me to show her of like the sparkeling gem that she is and trust me she is. Those who know me know that im the king of the one liner and no person or subject is sacred if i can see a blatant one liner it's up and out of my mouth before my lips have moved and unfourtunatly my bride is very often the victim of these one liners not that she objects as she is fully aware that there is no malace in what i say and quiet often she laughs herself. But recently God has been telling me through numerious ppl and several words from god through different ppl that im in a way disrespecting her and tarnishing what a wonderfull creation he has made and i hold my hands up finally i realise there are some things that are too precious to be mocked what ever the motive and sometimes that laugh comes at to high a price. Took A while but it is finally sinking in lol and im going to do my best to treat her the way that she deserves and to value her as god does and i am finally realising what gift i have been given and im going to do my best to cherishe her and love her as she is truly a blessing second only to my salvation.

So, while we are on the subject of the weekend and being greatful it all ties up nicely with what i will be doing on sunday lol(gosh you would think i plan this lol). On Sunday we have a praise and worship with the theams of being thankfull and we have been asked to take something that symbolises our thanks. I know what im taking but it was a hard decision as i have so much to thank god for where do i start infact anyone reading this will have an abundance of things to give thanks for even if they have no relationship with christ, cause as a christian i believe the bible when it says every good thing comes from god the father, that his blessings overtake us and this is not just reserved for us christians this is for every man woman and child for it say's every breath we take is because god has ordianed it And let face it we all breath it not just a privlidge for thoes that believe is it. Infact i believe the only difference is that as christians we know where to take our thanks and those who dont know jesus dont. So that is why get very angry with people when they say what have I got to be thankful for cause it means that they are missing the point they have tunnel vision they cant grasp the bigger picture for it also says in gods word that everything works for the good of those that love him so even the bad things we should be thankful for and i know thats hard but you either believe gods word or you dont. and believe me when i say it is us that makes it hard it our unbelife and our doubts. Because jesus said come to me all you that are weary and heavy burdend for i will give you rest and my yolk is easy and his burden light. so ppl if you reading this just please look at the good things in you life may it be family may it be the roof over your head may it just be the breath that your taking now cause while you still have breath you have hope, cause while your still breathing your alive, and while your alive it means god has not given up on you yet.

Day 2 (and im still here)

Right im back so where do i start you had a bit of a pre-face yesterday so maybe i should start on the meat of it all today that however may prove to be a little more difficult than it seems. Because feelings and emotions used to play a big part in my life and everyday decisions, but then i learnt to keep a lid on them and react with a logical mindset. Whch is not always easy and if you play on my emotions to any degree you will see parts of my old character show through. And i hate it when that happens cause when i wear my heart on my sleeve, it is then i usually make the stupidest decisions and do things i end up majorly reggretting. I can put 95% of my worset decisions and actions down to my emotions. Which actually is quiet a big statment to make if you anylyse it long enough. so getting the meat of this blog leaves me with a quandery do i set out through a logical mind and lay it out as i would like to read it or do i open the flood gates and let it all flow out as i believe is the real purpose of these things, but then ppl reading this might wonder which is the real me the Chris in here or the chris i portray which is still the real me but with reigns on. an ex of mine once said of me i was like two different ppl. 95% of the time i was this nice guy, but then this small propotion of the time i was this monster and i actually accept that. But since then i have really kicked myself up the backside and took a real hard look at my life my life and and realised instead of feeling sorry for myself and expecting others to fix my life for me. The only person who was going to change my life was me and that was last year and now im married to the love of my life (a word i once recived in church Said this is the woman i always wanted) and i agree im starting to make a relationship with my son which as we both are so alike can be challenging but i know with gods help and S interferring ill get there lol. and more importantly, and i say more importantly for the reason that. The only way i can achevie all this and make it all sucseed is that i have god back in my heart and that is so settling. when my emotions now rise up God's word calms them when i panic God's word settles me when i worry gods word gives me hope when im scared gods word gives me courage i think your starting to get the idea. I can't say enough how much god has done in my life i cant tell how much i owe him. gods word say's and dont ask me to quote the scripture cause i cant but if any of you know it feel free to leave it in the comment's and i think this is a good way to close today's blog. Gods word says"he who lose's his life for me shall truly save it" and my life is a living testomony to that.

Married Life

Hi there and welcome to my new blog. you will have to bare with me as i start of as i aint got a clue. And also as a word of warning i tend to type as i think so my grammer and spelling may not be up to everyone eles standered so if that is going to be an issue then please move on i dont know how ofteten i will be on here but right now it seems like a good way of organising my thoughts and generally passing time and it may help me get some prospective. Please feel free to comment as i would welcome other idea's and though's i may not agree but welcome them never the less. Right down to the business in hand my blog.

Well its day 5 of married life and what a ride it has been to get to this point. but now it has happened it feels a bit strange. i know i have been married twice before and once to my current wife so if anyone should know what to excpect it should be me right? WRONG this is nothing like i expected you try being away from your family for 8 years not knowing your son and your wife growing in maturity, wisdom and ideas and not being apart of it. it takes some adjusting i can tell you! and to top it all off im rediscovering my relationship with god and i know some might think oh no here is another jesus freak and all i can say to that is damm right!! God is my source, my strengh my map for life and everything i have good is from him. if you have sensible issues about this i am always open for debate but if your not that interested and just want abuse then please move on. Having said that i have been away from god for the past 8 years and tried doing life without him so im not some judgmental religous fool and please feel free to kick me if i ever start sounding like one cause i know i do have tendanies of this nature due to alot of my past teaching on this subject so again please bare with me. I hope from reding this blog myself i will help process my thoughs and gain some understanding to the issues in my life and of coures other ppl's comments may help direct my thught patern in a way that i may not have considered i try now not to be as closed inded as i once was. Which i can tell you is not always easy for me cause i always had to be right and life has taught me im not so time to re-evaluate i think lol.
One of the biggest thing i have learnt is to value mself and not search for my self worth in other people. I have learnt that i am who i am and not to be ashamed of it and that god loves me as much as he loved some of the greatest men and women in the bible and that is not just reserved for me that is for each and everyone of us and to be honest if the creator of the universe has approved me, Mr Jones next door oppinion of me is just Mr Jones's opinion and it has no affect on my own feeling of self worth. So unfourtunatly for people around me im going to be me and i hope the real me will show through on this Blog and as you read you will get a insight into me and how i tick as well as my life and it circumstances so bukle up and come along for the ride and lets just see where it takes us???